Michael Jackson Died way too Soon. Why did it Happen?
Friday, June 26th, 2009I was in total awe when I saw Michael Jackson dancing and moonwalking across the stage as he sang his mega hit “Billie Jean”. Michael unleashed the moonwalk to the world on a television special called “Motown 25: Yesterday, Today, Forever” which was a 1983 television special to commemorate Motown’s twenty-fifth year of existence. I was only 8 years old at the time but I was forever changed. I tried to moonwalk whenever the opportunity presented itself. Although my moonwalk was never as slick as Michael’s, people new what I was doing.
I don’t think there will ever be another entertainer who will grab the world the way Michael Jackson did. Michael Jackson sold 750 million records world wide becoming the number one solo artist of his time. His career was truly extraordinary. Michael Jackson seemed to be larger then life. However, there is no one in the world that is larger than life. Michael Jackson’s family feared he overdosed on morphine On 11/29/1993, Michael Jackson canceled his “Dangerous” worldwide tour and went into seclusion after admitting that pain from a burn injury in 1984 as well as allegations of sexual abuse have caused him to become addicted to painkillers. Jackson said that he began using painkillers after reconstructive surgery for the burn he suffered in 1984 while filming a PepsiCola commercial.
Alison Boshoff from www.dailymailuk.com reported last month that Jackson was struggling to make even a handful of the rehearsals for the comeback tour which was scheduled for 2010 at the O2 in London. He had been to just two out of more than 45 rehearsals. Those close to Michael claimed that his long-term addiction to painkillers combined with the considerable pressure of attempting a showbusiness comeback – may just have claimed his life. According to Alison Boshoff’s Jackson family source, he was ‘just not able to pick himself up out of the painkiller stupor’ that he was in.
Lisa Marie Presley wrote in her blog the following:
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Years ago Michael and I were having a deep conversation about life in general. I can’t recall the exact subject matter but he may have been questioning me about the circumstances of my Fathers Death. At some point he paused, he stared at me very intensely and he stated with an almost calm certainty, “I am afraid that I am going to end up like him, the way he did.” I promptly tried to deter him from the idea, at which point he just shrugged his shoulders and nodded almost matter of fact as if to let me know, he knew what he knew and that was kind of that. 14 years later I am sitting here watching on the news an ambulance leaves the driveway of his home, the big gates, the crowds outside the gates, the coverage, the crowds outside the hospital, the Cause of death and what may have led up to it and the memory of this conversation hit me, as did the unstoppable tears. A predicted ending by him, by loved ones and by me, but what I didn’t predict was how much it was going to hurt when it finally happened. The person I failed to help is being transferred right now to the LA County Coroners office for his Autopsy. All of my indifference and detachment that I worked so hard to achieve over the years has just gone into the bowels of hell and right now I am gutted. I am going to say now what I have never said before because I want the truth out there for once. Our relationship was not “a sham” as is being reported in the press. It was an unusual relationship yes, where two unusual people who did not live or know a “Normal life” found a connection, perhaps with some suspect timing on his part. Nonetheless, I do believe he loved me as much as he could love anyone and I loved him very much. I wanted to “save him” I wanted to save him from the inevitable which is what has just happened. His family and his loved ones also wanted to save him from this as well but didn’t know how and this was 14 years ago. We all worried that this would be the outcome then. At that time, In trying to save him, I almost lost myself. He was an incredibly dynamic force and power that was not to be underestimated. When he used it for something good, It was the best and when he used it for something bad, It was really, REALLY bad. Mediocrity was not a concept that would even for a second enter Michael Jackson’s being or actions. I became very ill and emotionally/ spiritually exhausted in my quest to save him from certain self-destructive behavior and from the awful vampires and leeches he would always manage to magnetize around him. I was in over my head while trying. I had my children to care for, I had to make a decision. The hardest decision I have ever had to make, which was to walk away and let his fate have him, even though I desperately loved him and tried to stop or reverse it somehow. After the Divorce, I spent a few years obsessing about him and what I could have done different, in regret. Then I spent some angry years at the whole situation. At some point, I truly became Indifferent, until now. As I sit here overwhelmed with sadness, reflection and confusion at what was my biggest failure to date, watching on the news almost play by play The exact Scenario I saw happen on August 16th, 1977 happening again right now with Michael (A sight I never wanted to see again) just as he predicted, I am truly, truly gutted. Any ill experience or words I have felt towards him in the past has just died inside of me along with him. He was an amazing person and I am lucky to have gotten as close to him as I did and to have had the many experiences and years that we had together. I desperately hope that he can be relieved from his pain, pressure and turmoil now. He deserves to be free from all of that and I hope he is in a better place or will be. I also hope that anyone else who feels they have failed to help him can be set free because he hopefully finally is. The World is in shock but somehow he knew exactly how his fate would be played out some day more than anyone else knew, and he was right. I really needed to say this right now, thanks for listening. ~LMP |
Millions of people are addicted to painkillers worldwide. Prescription drug addiction is a growing problem. According to the Office of National Drug Policy, emergency room visits resulting from the abuse of painkillers alone has gone up 163% since 1995.
I had once been in a painkiller stupor’ myself. Read about my addiction right here at How I Changed my Addictions
Elvis Presley, Jim Morrison, Jimi Hendrix, Marilyn Monroe, and now Michael Jackson have shown the world that no one is larger than life. Imagine the lives these individuals could have led if they were to live drug free? It is time we pay attention to the crisis that is the secretly hidden pain killer addictions of millions of people. Just because it comes from a doctor doesn’t make pain killer use okay. Just because it is found in your families medicine cabinet doesn’t make it okay. It is time we pay extra attention to our family members pain killer addictions. If you know someone who is suffering from this horrible addiction, please get them help. If you don’t know where to turn, you can try Narcotics Anonymous or email me and I will guide you to the right source. I have been pain killer free for almost five years. I can tell you that it wasn’t easy, but I did it. If I did it, anyone can do it.
I would like everyone to keep the Jackson family in their hearts and prayers. It is not their fault that they didn’t get him help. No one can get help for someone if that person does not want help. I hope they have the strength in the future to talk about this problem to people who are suffering from this addiction so they cannot make the mistake that their beloved Michael made.
Michael Joseph Jackson
August 29, 1958 – June 25, 2009
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